Happy 5th Birthday, Ginny!

Dear Ginny,

Happy 5th Birthday!! What a milestone! What a big girl – a whole hand! Daddy and I are so proud of you!

When I told your brother that your birthday was coming up, he got so excited. He couldn’t wait to go to your birthday party in heaven! I told him one day we would but we couldn’t go this year. He later drew the conclusion that we can’t drive to heaven… “so I guess we’ll have to walk,” he said. It feels like such a long walk to get to you. The Bible says that one day all that’s lost will be restored. Does that mean that one day we will get to experience your 5th birthday party? I don’t know, but it’s a nice idea.

Mostly I just wanted to hug you and kiss you and stare at you and look into your eyes. I want to brush your hair and watch you run and hear you laugh. I want to hear you sound out words as you begin to read. I want to see you dance with your daddy!

I so wish I could drop you off at preschool with your brother. You guys would run into the woods together. You’d push him in the big tree swing, and you would protect him. I wouldn’t worry so much with you two together.

I know you would love helping to take care of Addie. She’s just like a baby doll. We could play baby dolls together. She’d look at you admiringly just like she looks at Chet. And you two would be sisters the way that my sisters and I are.

What would’ve been! But that’s not how things are. I’m sad about that but not hopeless. I know you are fully free in heaven. My heart is full of love for you and for our whole family! Thank you for being our first born and big sister! We love you so much!

Love,

Mama